I had a whole thing typed up about how I am feeling, and then I hit the wrong key and it disappeared. Basically what it said is that I feel sick.
Back in June when my tumor markers went up and the doctor recommended going back on chemo, I didn't want to because I felt pretty good. Well, I don't feel so good anymore. I am tired all the time, and feeling dizzy and nauseated from the brain tumor. My bone pain isn't being managed very well, and I just feel lousy.
So, I know feel that my quality of life is bad enough to warrant going back on chemo. Most my days are bad right now, they are just cancer induced bad. Once I start chemo, they will be chemo induced bad. It is what it is.
I was able to scrounge up enough energy to go with my family to the fountains at The Gateway in Salt Lake City. We rode the train down, and let the kids play in the water. It was a lot of fun, but it took too much energy. I spent the next day in bed all day because I was so worn out. I am grateful that I was able to go and make more memories with my kids.
Only 4 more days until I begin chemo again. I am not looking forward to it, but I am ready.