Dear Family & Friends,
I just wanted to give a report to all who are concerned and believe me I know there are many. Amber has been mostly in a restful state where she cannot wake up or talk since early Friday morning (about the time I posted the last blog post). After the struggles of Tuesday-Thursday we very grateful that she is resting. She is mostly not able to open her eyes or even answer. The hospice nurse assures us that she can still hear what we say to her and feel our touch. So we spending a lot of time holding her hand and talking to her. She has been able to answer a few times with an "I love you", but for the most part she does not have the energy or ability to say more. I guess it is only fitting that the last words Amber may be able to formulate in this life be "I love you". I wouldn't be surprised if they weren't also the first. Amber and I have always tried to make those words the most important in our home. We never leave the house, hang up the phone, or go to bed with saying "I love you". Our children have adopted that also.
This morning I told Amber as she was sleeping that the Sabbath Day, which she has always honored and kept, would be a wonderful day to rest from all her cares and struggles and since she can't go to church to worship she could go to His presence and worship Him there. We are as ready as we can be to have her leave us and go there. Even the kids see that as the better option now. So we now wait. As we wait I think I have alternated between heavy heart and full heart. I am so thankful that my heart is filled and strengthened. I know many people are praying for our peace, especially Amber's, as she prepares to leave this life and enter the rest that the Savior has promised. "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27) This is the peace we are hoping and praying for for Amber and ourselves. We are trying to obtain it in His way.