I began my chemo pills again last night after having several weeks off. It has been 4 weeks since I have had IV chemo either. It has felt so wonderful to be able to eat and enjoy food, enjoy family events, go on vacation, and have a little more energy while I have had my little chemo break.
Having metastatic cancer causes so many problems by itself; pain, fatigue, stomach issues etc. When you add chemo, you just add a bunch of other problems. During my chemo break I was able to do so many great family things like my sister in law's wedding, going out to dinner as a family, going to the Draper temple open house, and of course our vacation to St. Maartin.
As much as I have enjoyed my weeks off from chemo, it is time to start the fight again. There was a part of me that really didn't want to start chemo again. The chemos that I am on only has a 20% chance of slowing the cancer. I realize that if I don't take chemo, I have a 0% chance. As difficult as it is to suffer the side effects, I feel like I have to TRY to do my part in fighting this disease. I need to know that I did my part to be here for as long as possible for my family.
I am being a glutton for punishment this week. Not only am I doing my oral chemo pills, I am going in for IV chemo today. I figure if I am going to be sick, I may as well double up and be really sick all at once. Plus I had to have an infected ingrown toenail removed yesterday. Due to chemo my nails grow all wonky, just another lovely side effect of my cancer treatments.
Needless to say, I am going to be flat in bed the rest of the week. My sister in law brought me some movies including the Anne of Green Gables movie series. So, I am going to have some great entertainment! I am always so grateful for all of the thoughtfulness of friends and family. My family and I am taken such good care of. I am always so grateful for the meals brought in, and thankful for the friends who take my little boys every afternoon so I can nap. If we weren't taken such good care of, I know I wouldn't have the energy to fight!